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Post by tshamien on Dec 29, 2011 14:06:11 GMT -5
"I don't know if I can," he admitted to her. He tenderly gripped her hand and gave it a gentle squeeze looking down at her. For some reason he knew something between them was changing. He swallowed hard. "I love you...but I...I should never have gotten married. Too many people want me dead, too many people can do this to you again and again."
Tristan let go of her hand and looked down at the floor. "If I can't even keep my own wife safe, what the hell am I good for?"
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Post by NevadaShamien on Dec 30, 2011 10:19:21 GMT -5
Nevada felt as if her heart was breaking even more, 'you need to stop with the anger Tristan. Find some other outlet,' Nevada said softly.
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Post by tshamien on Dec 30, 2011 11:33:11 GMT -5
"I don't know if I can," he said to her.
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Post by NevadaShamien on Dec 30, 2011 11:51:00 GMT -5
'it's not that you can't it's that you're choosing not to! Your actions are your choices. Make different ones or I'm leaving and I'm taking the kids,' Nevada said sternly.
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Post by tshamien on Dec 30, 2011 15:48:05 GMT -5
"Dont you dare take my kids away!" he yelled at her. "all you want to do is change me! Since we got fucking married that's it! I try to push it down but then I feel like I'm gonna explode! This is who I am!"
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Post by NevadaShamien on Dec 30, 2011 16:16:22 GMT -5
'get out!' Nevada said angrily, 'I get beaten half to death, have a miscarriage because of YOUR choices and you have the nerve to yell at me!' Nevada said weakly shaking her head, 'how dare you! The only reason I would leave with the kids, Tristan, is because it's too dangerous....for their own GOOD so this,' she said gesturing to her body, 'doesn't happen to them....or worse! You should be ashamed of yourself coming in here and yelling at me.'
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Post by tshamien on Dec 30, 2011 16:52:43 GMT -5
"Don't tell me what to fucking feel! You just threatened to take away my children!" he yelled at her and slammed his hand against the wall.
"You think I don't know that it's my fault this happened to you! That I'm not guilty! You make it so hard to apologize, you just turn off! What else do you want me to do? To stop? Then what would I do with my life? My whole world is violence!"
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Post by NevadaShamien on Dec 30, 2011 17:03:07 GMT -5
Nevada couldn't hold it in any longer and completely lost it, letting out a loud sob. Everything hurt terribly. Her body, her heart and she couldn't keep it in any longer. Her body shook with her sobs, not even bothering to wipe her tears.
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Post by tshamien on Dec 30, 2011 18:38:23 GMT -5
Tristan sighed heavily, "please...please don't cry," he whispered and went over to the bed. He gently wiped the tears from her eyes.
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Post by NevadaShamien on Dec 30, 2011 20:29:02 GMT -5
'ev....ry.....thing.....hurts,' Nevada said in between sobs. 'ev.....ry.....thing.' she said, reaching out to take his hand.
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Post by tshamien on Dec 30, 2011 20:55:59 GMT -5
Tristan took her hand between both of his and pressed his lips to her curled fingers, lowering his head. "I'm sorry..." he said again. He didn't know what to do with himself, he didn't know how to help her and all he wanted to do was make her better.
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Post by NevadaShamien on Dec 31, 2011 0:56:34 GMT -5
'I love you,' Nevada choked out, 'I just don't think I'll ever recover from this,' she said putting a hand over her heart
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Post by tshamien on Dec 31, 2011 2:13:50 GMT -5
"I'll help you," he said. "as best I can. I don't want to be without you."
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Post by NevadaShamien on Dec 31, 2011 11:59:38 GMT -5
Nevada felt truly broken, convinced she'd never feel better. She nodded slowly though deciding she'd let Tristan try. 'I don't want to be without you either,' she said, trying to ignore the 'but' that was floating around her head
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Post by tshamien on Dec 31, 2011 12:03:31 GMT -5
He knew something had changed between them forever and now he needed to keep them glued to each other and he was willing to try.
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